my life as a friend lover..haha

Me and Jason

Me,Sarah, Cherry, David

Nathan

Me, Jo and Ryan
Well this weekend was pretty much amazing! Friday night I hung out with Mitch and Heath which I havent done in awhile and of course the bonus to that was Shana as well! She's getting to be so smart. She laughs and throws her hand over her face like a grown up, oh my gosh so cute! After that I went home and ended up talking to Jason for awhile, he had been working straight evenings for the past 2 weeks and was starving for some social interaction. Haha he calls me at 11:45 and is like, what are you up to? I dont plan on going to bed anytime soon. Like hello!! Thats late, well now it is, 5 years ago I wouldnt have cared! saturday was healing school in the morning, which I was tired for because of talking to Jay so late the night before. I felt better because he was there too and we could be tired together. Then after we went for lunch (me, jay, ryan, nathan and sarah) it was amazing! You know that realization you get when you discover that your friends are totally on the same page as you!? Its like wow, we all are in the same place in our walk with God where we are just so excited about Hima nd what He is calling us into. And its nice to know that my beliefs are shared by them as well, I discovered I am not alone in being weird. Ryan and I coined the phrase "weird is the new normal". So true, so true indeed. After lunch we spent the afternoon shopping, well more like Jason spent the afternoon shopping and we just followed him. I bought a pair of hush puppies while waiting for him so that was exciting. Saturday night Jay and I went to Robbs house to meet up with Deb , Robb and Birgit for dinner and a jamm session in Robb's studio. We try to record some stuff as much as possible, but that night we got chit chattin about the world and whats going on, we ended up watching a documentary on 911 instead. I concluded later while Jay and I were driving home that I have no idea how I feel about that kinda stuff or even what to think. People think that Bush organized it for an excuse for war. I have no idea honestly. Sunday was church, then huddle, then choir and then I went to Heaths house for dinner. Went home around 7:30 and watched tv with family. I completely intended to go to sleep early as I was exhausted but then Jay called and wanted to talk, so of course I did because thats what I do. So needless to say, 12:30am later, it was off to bed! It was funny because I just had such a great weekend even though it wasnt like super exciting stuff going on. I guess I say all this to say that man...I have amazing friends! I love them so much and honestly I've never had friends like this so before! God has truly blessed me! I am a firm believer that if God moves you out of a phase in your life that you think is awesome, He definately wont replace it with something crappy. He will replace it with something better. so Im blessed and so thankful, God knew exactly what I needed in relationships and I will never ever doubt that He cares for me. Anyway, If I dont get to blog before I leave for Guatemala please pray for me. It will be an amazing time and I really know God has some amazing stuff He wants to do there. Also, please pray for Ryan as he will be coming too. 4 more days! yay!!

my life as a reflective, appreciative, free girl.

so as you may or may not know, im heading to Guatemala next week for a missions trip. Im pretty super excited about it! I have been thinking a lot lately about stuff and how blessed we are to live where we live. Sometimes I wonder why God chose me to grow up in Canada when I know there are other people living in other countries that make less than $2 a day. I am so fortunate and blessed, sometimes we take it for granted. Wait...let me rephrase that...we most of the time take it for granted. Just think as you climb out of your warm bed after a cozy dreamy evening of sleep and hop into the shower, put on your clothes and groom yourself...there are people who wake up after sleeping on a dirt floor all night, sometimes with their animals sharing their hut, no blankets, no running water,and the same old clothes they have worn every day. And yet we complain when we dont have enough money for the newest ipod or computer or whatever. How greatful are we really? Sunday was the International Day of Prayer for the Persecuted church and this is something that is near and dear to my heart even as the day approached I couldnt help but think about freedom and how much we just go on about our lives. I mean there is people here in North America who will skip church for various reasons such as laziness or offence, and yet there are countries where people risk their lives to go to church and hear about God. People who hold prayer meetings in various places always changing for fear of being discovered. Men are killed, women are raped and all because of their desire to worship God...how naiive we are! How selfish we are! How uneducated we are! I dunno...I want to make a difference and if prayer is all I can contribute than it will be that, I feel like I need to do more. God has put this burden on my heart, not so I will be ashamed but so I will look at my own life and realize that God blesses us for the purpose of us being able to bless others. One step at a time...I want to know I am living up to my full potential. There is a list, called the Global Rich list, and when looking at it, it shows me that I am in the top 12% richest people in the world!! I feel inadequate somehow, like I should be doing more. I pray God uses me in every way possible. It just takes a heart of obedience and a heart of willingness. Step out in faith......afterall,can we not relate? Are we not all in someway the persecuted church? Think about it...afterall the bible does say i n John " I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you". Persecution has many faces, some more severe....but we never should sit back and think we will always have it perfect.

My life as a laughter junkie

Sometimes in life, we are in very awkward situations......for example, have you ever been in a very intense and serious conversation and something happens and you really want to laugh very loud but you know that "right now" is not the best time for laughter?well....for some reason, I'm in those situations a lot.Once I was in a meeting and the main guy leading the meeting kept on flexing his chest every 3 seconds. I don't think he did it on purpose, maybe it was just a bad habit. Needless to say, this was not one of those happy conversations. I almost had a heart attack trying to hold the laughter! I mean, when some guy's pecs are playing hop scotch right in front of you...what are you supposed to do?!?So, I am a person that loves to help people. So I will give you advice on what to think about when in a situation like the one above. And these thoughts should help you avoid laughter!
When you want to laugh but you know you're not supposed to. Here are some "to do's" to help control you're laughter:
1. think of how your life would be if you were a chair
2. picture yourself freezing outside and the only thing you have to drink is ice cold water
3. imagine you were a banana peel
4. think of a leather purse made from E.T.
5.think of sick puppies
6. Picture yourself if your knees bent the other way
7. bite your tongue
8. think of running over bambi.....barefoot!
9. imagine being the wrapper on a straw...
10. imagine you were allergic to toothpaste and mint and your favorite food was fried chicken feet sprinkled with garlic and cayan!*
these ten things should help you quickly regain control. Very Quick, like Nestle. I know you love me now...bow to my wisdom!

My life as a vindictive friend

So here I sit, its 9:30 am and I am forced to blog about things early as a proven point to a darling sweet friend of mine. I would much rather keep listening to the Fray drinking my Timmy Ho's and chat to my "real" friends on MSN, but no! You've forced my hand!!! Today my friends I would like to talk about my friend Tyler, my sweet little sunshine, my monsieur bitterfly. Ah yes, what is in a name? Lets see shall we? Tyler: house builder. Wow...thats lame!!! LOL...I thought I could get more than that. Well lets see what else I can dig up, drag out and what not. I remember so many things about Tyler, his obsessive need for shopping and how crazy he really gets when he's darting from store to store....giving off that deep sigh when he cant find the right thing or if hes frustrated by the salesperson who he thinks is an idiot. Or there is his insane need to borrow and burn music....CD's...hes crazy about them! But thats not really a fault is it? so what is? does he have them? no! you say...not Tyler!! oh but wait my dear friends! just wait a gosh darn minute! I think sometimes there comes a time where you need to engage the big guns...cablamo!!! Fire them for all their worth!!!! stuff like this frustrates me because I know Tyler has stuff on me and can use the same force if not worse....all i know is that Tyler has this thing where he feels the need to find the most wrong girls for him on the planet and pursue them with all his might....needless to say they always turned out bad...so so bad...but oh so funny hearing those stories. I am not going to say anymore because I am uninspired, I just took an hour long break to visit some friends who dropped by (chris and mel) and i lost my train of thought. but i'll leave you with this....a photo of one of the aforementioned shopping trips...because I'm just wicked awesome like that!!! hahahahahahahaha

My life as a confused girl

Hello world, this is me, Im a confused girl I think. I am angry, Im frustrated, Im confused, Im relieved, Im content but yet oh so frickin confused!Confusion? What does it mean? well lets see...
disorder; upheaval; tumult; chaos: lack of clearness or distinctness: perplexity; bewilderment: The more difficult questions left us in complete confusion. a disturbed mental state; disorientation.
Yep, that pretty much sums it up. So heres the thing. Men, guys,boys...no matter what you wanna call them the truth is...I dont get them! So...today I was talking to my friend Ryan about relationships, and well, my day was already in a damper because of visual contact with the ex...grr...the ex. Get out of my head! Seriously! Im so not kidding this time! Heres the thing, my life is already in disarray because certain people feel the need to stick their noses where it doesnt belong so on top of dealing with that situation I am brought full kilter back into my former always consistent problems, well not problems more so confusing heart break. why is it that after almost 3 months I still cant seem to kick the whatever it is. Like am I hurt, am I angry, am I sad, am I relieved, am I grateful? I dont know. I dont think people understand. So I am like ok I wanna see him and talk to him and have things benormal and then when I do see him and he talks to me I get angry and upset and am all like what the heck is he talking to me for!? I dont wanna see him! Am I insane? or am I just human? maybe Im just being a girl. I dunno, why cant I see him and not go crazy? Why cant I hear people talk about him and not feel like I am missing out on my life. I dont like him, i have no feelings for him! Im confused! So I need advice, and not from people who say I deserve better, because thats not where Im going with this. I want advice from good relationship knowledgable people...postrelationshipism...help me! Am I angry at him? Am I sad? Am I relieved? Am I grateful? I dunno! All I know is whatever it is...I dont want to feel this way!